DELIRIUM ATTACK…
“See, there’s thinking about him, right? Which is what I do. All the time. It’s like an obsession. It keeps me going. Like I need that to get through the day because it’s an obsession. And if you make it real-it’s not the same. It’s not yours anymore.”
I miss you Mr. Bells!!! I try my hardest just to disregard your very presence in my head but it is no use…it is continuum that it brings catastrophe and taboo "urges" which vitiates my consciousness…and it is continuum.
I guess, I have crossed the border line, the fine line which fuses me to reality when I decided to link you to my world. You have become a permanent resident and always the leading mummer in my decay thoughts. My mind is big enough to hold every moment with you, just in my mind, only in my mind.
…….I will continue to capture your frame; i want you to be perceive by me………..
btw, midterms na; and anytime soon i will be donating my precious blood to a little girl,. I am still confuse though, the thought of it brings me goose flesh….ahhh..,kailangan ko nang magreview!!! Mr. Bells…BEHAVE!!
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TEDDY PICKER!!
well, what can i say?? this day is da BOMB men!!
**‘di pa nga ako nakakaupo my *ehem* chakabell stuff na si joey~
and i am telling you; madugo itong bagay na ito!!bwahaha.
**then, let’s say 5 minutes after the madugo na rebelasyon ni joey which caused me to spazz…Analew entered the room with a spanking new hair yeah!!\m/. "may bulge siya pare!!hehehe.To tell you frankly i find it (ana’s new hair do) kewl. She even made me jealous of her newly shaved *ehem* kilay!!
There’s just only one thing that really kept me feeling agitated almost throughout the day——and it is due to the fuc**** GUARD!! yes, aking mga kababayan.."leche na guard" we almost established a conversation around the "catwalk"**leche talaga!! Masama bang tumawa??dork !-_-!
To tell you frankly, it is not my first time to (be smittened(yuck!!) get into trouble with the guard. My first time was when i was in my former school; mga kaibigan, i got suspended!!! for one whole week!!! of course, with FATZ…WAHHHH!! i will never forget that guard!! she is a obese with owl-like eyes!!!. mukha siyang butete!!swear!bwahaha.
ANyways, i never felt so tired until this time of my life; or maybe i am just overreacting on things. But creatures, I am. Totally wasted. idagdag pa yang midterms na yan!! sabawan na!! just the thought of it makes me nostalgic!
The worst part is that my everyday life is slowly turning into a routine; which is bad!!
ayokong maging stagnant!! but dillydally malapit na siya sa point na yun!!
Thanks to me fellow Australians for keeping me animated…..
whew!! I miss my old friends though. I miss the our fossilized trippings!! nangungulila ako sa kanila!!! *reality bites*
BLACK HOLES AND REVELATIONS.
Name: jinky
Date: 1/27/2008
Colorgenics Number: 21574360
You are a very sensitive person and you
try hard (perhaps a little too hard) to make favourable impressions and
to be recognised by your peers. But you have that inherent need to feel
appreciated and admired and you are easily hurt if all of your
endeavours go by unappreciated or not acknowledged. Stop trying so hard.
You dislike playing the field in every sense of the word. When you
develop a relationship it needs to be a close fulfilling one, one that
has deep meaning for all parties concerned.
You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you
have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but
you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realise these
ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of
activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that -
‘dreams’ which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not
thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it
all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore
your confidence.
As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a
result of continuous frustration. You haven’t been taking care of all
your physical needs and it’s beginning to show. It would seem that you
have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone
perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be
different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd.
Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your
ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own,
being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your
strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone
else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as
weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for
yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.
You are afraid that you may not be able to realise or achieve your
hopes and desires and so you insist that people should accept you as
you are and appreciate your rights to anything that you aspire to.
COMMENTS!!!
i cannot believe that i spazz..bwahahaha.
i thought he was gone!!damn it!!
but he is alive..his flesh; the moment i bump into him again;
ladies and gentlemen: i hate this.
that very moment that i saw him again after who knows?/seems like forever..i realized that he still possess that effect on me!!!!damn it!!
and i am telling you ladies and gentleman; i almost forgot that i have to breathe!!… i thought i would throw up!!!
my heart betrayed me!!!
the worst part is that—-i know after seeing him again; my world will never be tha same!!…damn it!!damn it!!!
how can he be so good in distractions?????
"After all this time
I never thought we’d be here
Never thought we’d be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go"
i miss my “RYE” so bad.
" And I’m standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff."
I really need to get a new copy of this book. But screw all those bookstore! what they have is the white one. I do not like that book cover or let’s just say that I do not want any copy that is new get it??
I want my copy to be the same 15 years old. yes. I "used to" own one that is 15 yrs old. It was given to me by my uncle but..(long story). i love Mr. caulfield so much! I miss him so bad.
anywa
ys, I hate this day for this must be my most embarrassing day ever."pwede bang paki-flush na lang ako sa inidoro" yes ganung tipo. I think i cannot even face tomorrow especially that person.*ehem*
‘this guy here; that was my face a while ago maybe even more red than that or pale like this one:
because i felt like i lost all my blood when i saw his face; that face; his face i will never forget.
"today i became the patient in our anatomy class. I was the one who was 
sucked by a needle in order to get BLOOD.
I just felt like it!! I love blood. It is my nature aside from I am a masochist, in a way. I want the pain! "Pain is a signal; it is a proof that you are still alive"
by the way ang blood type ko ay B!!Rh+.
ASKWHOLE…
I met an asshole. i considered her the best "dumbo" u’ll ever meet.
yes, I pity 
her for that. and it just proves that good always win against evil..
‘gudluck na lang sa buhay mo’
the "LAST LAUGH" is mine.
bleeh.. okies enough with the crap.
Lately I began to be fascinated on big and long things(lolz).
whew! im not talking about "that" okay?.
What i mean is; I just began plotting my future. Well thanks to a friend who influenced me because of her "post-its" (post-it the square paper thingy wherein you can write a memo or just anyting then yeah Post it! in the refrigerator or mirror or if you want right on your face.) get it?? if not; "zuellig, ang slow mo!!" this words were uttered by a person whom I….figure it out by yourself!.
would you mind if i share some of my chakabell stuff?? would you? really? greatness!
well first of all i want to be an "elite deviant" in a good way!! i will be encouraging all of you to be the "the UNCOMMON MAN" to choose the road that is not taken and leave a trail! BREAK THE GUILLOTINE!!
ahhm suddenly I WANT BLUE EYES!! but it is something that i will never ever have.UNLESS, i will marry a guy that is blue eyed!woohoo! actually somehow that is a part of my plan. because i always wanted to travel and my first stop would be ENGLAND! to meet english guys!; english guys are hot!!(drools**) and learn their accent. consider me weird i do not care! Then after touring england and *ehem* meeting MATTHEW BELLAMY by that i think i am already in heaven; because matthew!oh matthew is the ultimate guy! he has blue eyes, he is an awesome guitar player ever!, and his voice oh no! how I wish to be the microphone! and before i forgot he can also play the piano and he is interested on conspiracy theories..i can go on like this forever..sharing to you how AMazing he is.But what can I do?? **sigh.
*ladies and gentleman..its matthew!
you should listen to MUSE!! great band! great music!
\dapat ata title ng post ko ai,
MATTHEW..binihag mo ako!huhuhu.
sorry guys, supposedly i was about to write my future plans but,.
I promise next time…by the way the lyrics of my MY FAVORITE song; of course by who else? my favorite band MUSE.
STARLIGHT……..
Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don’t know if it’s worth it anymore
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
My life
You electrify my life
Let’s conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
But I’ll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms…..
TNX!!
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